Monday, February 11, 2013

Uninspired

I just need to take a moment to pause and acknowledge the fact that today was hard.  For a number of reasons.  First of all, I was so inspired today.  I wanted to craft and plant seeds in my garden and make a delicious dinner and write and read and play my piano and guitar.

Instead, I had to spend the day on an assignment that's due tomorrow.

A 1-2 page paper.

No big deal, right? Apparently wrong.  Because I have spent literally 8 hours on it.  8 hours on a 2 page paper?  I have written 10 page papers in less time than that.

It just made me realize (again) that grad school is hard work.  I shouldn't feel bad about the fact that it's hard.  I'm glad it is.  I'm learning SO MUCH and I love linguistics.  I feel like I was made to study it.  But today was hard.

And I made waffles for dinner.  Waffles with bacon and eggs.  Not that there's anything wrong with waffles.  But waffles on a day where I felt so inspired to make something new and exciting sort of left me feeling unsatisfied.

But then I remembered that my satisfaction comes from Christ and not what I make for dinner, or even how much of my day was spent on writing seven paragraphs.

So now it's 10:41, and even though today was hard and I didn't get to feed my inspiration, I do get to wake up tomorrow, hop on a big, red trolley and be a graduate student.  I will learn a lot and be challenged to think and ask questions.  And that is exciting.

Goodnight!

-Alicia

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